Stick Season

As you promised me that I was more
Than all the miles combined
You must have had yourself a change of heart
Like halfway through the drive
Because your voice trailed off exactly
As you passed my exit sign
Kept on driving straight
And left our future to the right

Now I am stuck between my anger
And the blame that I can't face
And memories are something
Even smoking weed does not replace
And I am terrified of weather
Cause I see you when it rains
Doc told me to travel
But there's Covid on the planes

And I love Vermont
But it's the season of the sticks
And I saw your mom
She forgot that I existed
And it's half my fault
But I just like to play the victim
I'll drink alcohol
Till my friends come home for Christmas

And I'll dream each night
Of some version of you
That I might not have
But I did not lose
Now you're tire tracks
And one pair of shoes
Am I'm split in half
But that'll have to do

So I thought that if I piled
Something good on all my bad
That I could cancel out the darkness
I inherited from dad
No, I am no longer funny
Cause I miss the way you laugh
You once called me forever
Now you still can't call me back

And I love Vermont
But it's the season of the sticks
And I saw your mom
She forgot that I existed
And it's half my fault
But I just like to play the victim
I'll drink alcohol
Till my friends come home for Christmas

And I'll dream each night
Of some version of you
That I might not have
But I did not lose
Now you're tire tracks
And one pair of shoes
Am I'm split in half
But that'll have to do

Oh, that'll have to do
My other half was you
I hope this pain's just passing through
But I doubt it

And I love Vermont
But it's the season of the sticks
And I saw your mom
She forgot that I existed
And it's half my fault
But I just like to play the victim
I'll drink alcohol
Till my friends come home for Christmas

And I'll dream each night
Of some version of you
That I might not have
But I did not lose
Now you're tire tracks
And one pair of shoes
Am I'm split in half
But that'll have to do
Have to do