Somebody Save Me

Daddy?
Huh?
Food's here.
Kept buying and see who gets it.
Come eat.
Alaina, I'm so tired.
Just come eat.
Alaina, I'll be there in a minute, I promise. Stop.
But wake up.
Shut the door.

Somebody save me
Me from myself
I've spent so long
Living in hell

Another pill as I start to spiral
Message to my daughters
I don't even deserve the father title
Hailie, I'm so sorry
I know I wasn't there for your first guitar recital
Didn't walk you down the aisle
Missed the birth of your first child
Your first podcast, looking down, sweetie

I'm so proud of how you turned out
Sorry that I chose drugs and put 'em above you
Sorry that I didn't love you
Enough to
Give 'em up, how the fuck do
I not love you
More than a pill, looking up to
The ceiling from this floor, wonder will

Somebody save me
Me from myself
I've spent so long
Living in hell
They say my lifestyle
Is bad for my health
It's the only thing
That seems to help

Alaina, sorry that you had to hear me
Fall in the bathroom
Sorry that I missed your gradu...
Wait, Nate, I should just congratulate you
On bein' a dad to
Carter and Liam, look at you
Little bro, sorry I left you
Sorry that I'll never get to

Hold or hug my little nephews
Stevie, I'm sorry, I missed you
Grow up and I didn't get to
Be the dad I wanted to be to you
Things I wanted to see you do
This is my song from me to you
Sorry I gave up, but I'm just so defeated
God, what the fuck do you want me to do

Somebody save me
Me from myself
I've spent so long
Living in hell
They say my lifestyle
Is bad for my health
It's the only thing
That seems to help

I've been staring at that video of Hailie
Almost daily of her playing a guitar
In hopes maybe that'll give me the power to fight
But the addict in me's a coward
He told me that I can't do it
Had a second chance, blew it
It's like I'm stuck inside an alternate reality
But I know (What)

I'll turn it around and be able to
Walk her and Lainie one day
To the altar as proud as can be
Right now, I'm just weak
As I fall further down in this deep hole
And farther in the ground that I sink
As they lower me in my coffin
I feel the tears all falling down on my cheek

I'm a lost cause
Baby, don't waste your time on me
I'm so damaged beyond repair
Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams

I'm a lost cause
Baby, don't waste your time on me
I'm so damaged beyond repair
Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams